I need you, Lord! ...

Thursday, Sept 18, 2014. Sometimes I have the real feeling that I need the Lord. I need his wisdom. I need his encouragement. I need his company. What could I do without him? How lasting would my actions be? My judgement cannot come to reasonable conclusions without him. I truly need him!

Search me, lead me! …

Psalm 139 expresses this desire for the Lords help, for his deep insight into what is in me, who I am and what I am. I can only be fully human, when I live with him. I really need him - I need you, my Lord!

1 To the choirmaster. A Psalm of David. O Lord, you have searched me and known me! 2 You know when I sit down and when I rise up; you discern my thoughts from afar. 3 You search out my path and my lying down and are acquainted with all my ways. 4 Even before a word is on my tongue, behold, O Lord, you know it altogether. 5 You hem me in, behind and before, and lay your hand upon me. 6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high; I cannot attain it. 7 Where shall I go from your Spirit? Or where shall I flee from your presence? 8 If I ascend to heaven, you are there! If I make my bed in Sheol, you are there! 9 If I take the wings of the morning and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea, 10 even there your hand shall lead me, and your right hand shall hold me. 11 If I say, “Surely the darkness shall cover me, and the light about me be night,” 12 even the darkness is not dark to you; the night is bright as the day, for darkness is as light with you. 13 For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb.

14 I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.1 Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. 15 My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. 16 Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them. 17 How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them! 18 If I would count them, they are more than the sand. I awake, and I am still with you. 19 Oh that you would slay the wicked, O God! O men of blood, depart from me! 20 They speak against you with malicious intent; your enemies take your name in vain.2 21 Do I not hate those who hate you, O Lord? And do I not loathe those who rise up against you? 22 I hate them with complete hatred; I count them my enemies. 23 Search me, O God, and know my heart! Try me and know my thoughts!3 24 And see if there be any grievous way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting! (Psalm 139)

Be our center and our guide …

Do you understand this deep desire, to be guided by the Lord. It is not to be ahead of others. It is not to rule, but to enter a kingdom of freedom and truth and mutual support. It is to be in heaven, where people take care of one another, where everyone has enough, where creativity can evolve and develop.

We have good news: heaven is no illusion. But it is not a reality within this world. Here, we have all the difficulties, we have all the stupid games, the quest for power and superiority and the outrageous crimes to which humans are capable. But in heaven, we have a kingdom of brothers. Each and everyone with special gifts, with particular skills. Each and everyone a precious stone, on which the whole community is built.

I am so happy about you, Lord, about your kingdom of heaven. I am so happy about this perspective, that things will be right, when your kingdom comes. I am so happy about your wonders, which come in unforseen ways, day by day. Lord, you reinstall my hope, my motivation, my strength. When I come to you, I experience a wonder, today, and each single time. Wow! (Roland Potthast) ... more texts